Life is so short,
But how come
We never appreciate it?
Wasting so much
Of what we hold
Wasting so much
Of people's gold.
Time flies
Look at it;
It forgets
It heals
It forgives.
It kills
It breaks hearts
It steals.
How many times
You turn back
To look at what
I gave?
How many times
Have you turn back
To notice what
I saved?
How many times
Have you ever thank me
For lending you my time
For wasting years in my life?
How many times
You ever looked me in the eyes
And tell me,
'You're beautiful,
And I love you with all my life.'
One day,
It will be too late.
One day,
I will collapse
Out of breath
Out of beats
Out of time
Just before you reach me
And hold me tight.
You will whisper
In my dead, deaf ear on the left;
"You're beautiful,
And I would have love you with all that's left."
And I will hear it
Somewhere
In another universe and dimension
Waiting to be reunited
For a thousand years
A million years
And forever...
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
WEINI - Starting With 'U' - Chapter 10
Alyse agreed! She agreed to come! And she gave me Kitkat! I smiled quietly to myself in the car. I can't wait! Two more days..... two more days to sleeping late and waking up late minus the disastrous detention! I just can't wait!
The minute I reached home, I rushed to my room and checked my mobile phone. Oh... my heart dropped in disappointment. No text from Alyse yet. Maybe she haven't reach home yet. I mean, come to think of it, she was walking home today. So yea, I should wait for another hour. I mean, she's a girl. She probably need to shower and stuff...
One hour later...
Okay, this might sound stupid but I think I really like Alyse. She's different... like some kind of... ummm... I don't know why I like her. I don't know how I like her either. Like say, in a girl friend way or a good friend way. But then, is that a big difference? She's just different from the other girls.
It's one hour after school and she still haven't text me yet. But then, she never said she was gonna text me anyway right? Sigh... I'm overreacting. I should probably forget it. I mean, it's not like it's holiday yet. Yet, I have a feeling that she would text me today... hmm... sixth sense or something.
Another one hour later...
Shyte... I kinda have to admit that I'm staring and waiting (AND drooling) loyally like some kind of innocent puppy by my mobile phone. It's really nerve wrecking, really. I think I'm just gonna go get something to eat first...
I walked down stairs to the kitchen and poked my head into the refrigerator. Cabbage. Coke. Lollipops. Brocolli, urgh! I recoiled in disgust. Cheese. Ice cream. Leftover pizzas. Apples. A half eaten watermelon wrapped in plastic. Ahh! That's what I was looking for - Kitkat! Awh... she offered me her Kitkat. Now I'm addicted to Kitkat. Wait, I always have loved Kitkat. Anyway, now I love them even more.
I took the whole packet out and sat at the kitchen table. I unwrapped the foil slowly and took a deep breath in. Ahh... Kitkat's dark chocolate. I love it! The aroma was soooo... erm... what was that word??? AH! Therapeutic. I took a bit and chew it thoughtfully... hmm... is it me or the Kitkat tastes different today? The Kitkat tastes different today.
After finishing the whole packet of chocolate, I poured myself some warm water and drank it. I walked up slowly to my room, hoping that there is a text from Alyse waiting for me. But NO. There wasn't any. Sigh... this sucks... I started in on my homework. I just need to be patient. She never said she was gonna text me. Yeap, I'm getting pass that... At about 9 something in the late evening, my mobile phone rang and I practically dived at it. On the screen was the name of the person I've been waiting to hear from the whole afternoon. See? Patience is virtue. It's Alyse! I waited a few seconds before picking up.
"Hi Aaron!" her voice floated down the phone. I think I must be crazy to think that the way she says my name... is different. She makes it sound so special...
"Hey," I said, trying to sound casual.
"Are you busy?" I can hear her frown down the phone.
"Busy? Uhh..." I didn't wanna let her know that I was waiting for her call, so I shuffled some papers to make some noise, "I was quite busy... but... what's up?"
"The top bunk," she replied nonchalantly.
"Hahahahahahahaha! Right!" I laughed.
"So erm... I called you to... talk," she said lamely.
"Obviously! You didn't call to hear me breathe, did you?" I tried to joke. But it was lame and I slapped my forehead.
She laughed her laugh. "So what do you wanna talk about?" I asked.
"Hmm... do you know that... Gabriel broke up with his girlfriend?" she asked carefully.
"Owh... he did... he did?" I asked, I felt disappointed. He's single and available. That's not a good thing is it? No it's not a good thing at all.
"Yeah!!!" she said cheerfully.
"Good for you then. He's single again," I said, not trying to hide my disappointment.
"Yea! I was soooooooo happy when I heard that! I was practically floating on the air while I walked home! It's like sooooooo... uh... CRAZEEEE!!!!" she squealed.
I winced. It hurts my heart, like a needle had just punctured my heart. That feeling sucks. But she doesn't know that I like her and I didn't wanna risk our friendship by telling her that I like her. It's too early to do that.
"I see... " I added just to show that I was listening to her.
"Are you... okay?" Alyse asked with uncertaincy.
"Me? Fine? Uhhh... yeah... I was just a bit distracted..." I said while shuffling the papers louder. I paced my room and accidentally kicked my bed.
"OUUUUUWWWWHHHH!!!" I shouted in pain. I bent down to rub my toe. Damn it!!! How can such little thing hurt so much? I was really frustrated. But what can I do?
"Is everything alright over there?" Alyse asked worriedly.
"Ouwwwhh... erm... everything is fine over here. I just kicked my bed by accident. No big deal... " I tried assuring her.
"You sound busy..." Alyse said. Yeah! I'm busy nursing my wounded heart... and toe, that's what. After she told me that news, I wasn't in a mood to chat with her anymore.
"Yeah, in fact, I just remembered there are some... things that had to be done and have been postponed too long..." I lied. I'm such a bad liar... for add-on, I'm such a jerky, bad and idiotic liar.
"Owh..." she said disappointedly. "You go on with your work then... we'll chat next time then! Bye!" and she hung up.
"Bye..." I said to the receiver. I sighed. Why did Gabriel exist? Why did he broke up with his girlfriend anyway??? I punched my pillow repeatedly. I punched them till I was too tired to move my arms and I fell, dead tired onto my bed. I breathed hard. I closed my eyes, took my pillow and pressed it on my face and screamed into the pillow. My muffled screams make me think more about it. This is me. My heart. Screaming, but muffled by Alyse's love for Gabriel. Not wait, Alyse may tell me a lot about Gabriel, but it's not love. I'm very sure. It's just... an interest. A crush. I'm sure. I closed my eyes and calmed my breath.
I think I slept off because the next thing I open my eyes, sunlight was pouring into my windows. I closed my eyes again. Wait a minute! Sunlight??? Oh damn it! I'm late again!!!!!!
I jumped off my bed and ran to my bathroom, washed my face and got ready for school. How come no one bothered to wake me up??? I ran down the stairs into the dining room. My parents were sitting at the table with my siblings.
"Why did no one wake me up???" I said angrily.
"Oh... we thougth you were sick... or unhappy. Areli heard you screaming in your room yesterday. Was something wrong?" my mother asked worriedly.
"Nothing, I'm fine. But I'm late, " I said. I took a piece of toast and ran into the car. I told the driver, also my most trusted friend, Malvolio, to drive fast because I was really late. I looked out the window and I saw Alyse, running towards school. I laughed. She must be late too. I told Malvolio to stop and shouted to Alyse and told her to come with me to school. She came in.
"Thanks!" she thanked me.
"Welcome..." I said.
"How's your foot?" she asked, concerned. My heart fluttered.
"Foot? Oh, that? It was nothing..." I said, I can feel blush rising up my neck. Malvolio stiffled a laugh and coughed to cover it. I glared at him dangerously through the mirror.
"Anyway... *sneeze*" Oh GOSH! That was embarrassing!
"'Scuse me..." I said, wiping my nose.
"Ewww... that was disgusting..." Alyse commented in disgust.
"Sorry," I wiped my hand on my pants.
"Now, that was even more disgusting," Alyse said.
Oh shyte. What was I thinking???
"Owh. Erm. Habit," I said. Habit??? Alyse just said it was disgusting and I said it was habit? I mentally slapped my forehead.
Alyse raised her right brow, like she always does when she's going to say, 'Riiiight...'
"Riiiight..." Alyse said. See? I told you!
"I mean, erm... I'm trying to kick this bad habit. It's really bad. I know that..." I said. I wish I could just shut up.
"Riiiight..." Alyse added and nodded to herself. She looked at me for a moment but I avoided her look. Then she turned to look out the window.
Suddenly she turned and said excitedly," Hey!!! You know what?"
"No," I frowned.
"Of course you don't! Not until I tell you!" she said.
"Right. What?" I said, uninterested.
"I was chatting with Gabriel online yesterday and he knows me! But he was like... 'owh! Are you the girl who is always late?'. That was totally embarrassing..." she said.
"You chatted with him? Since when do you guys chat online?" I asked, suddenly curious to know more.
"Since last night. I gave him a bad impression... sigh..."
"I'm sure it's not that bad. Once he gets to know you, he might actually like you afterall. Guys prefer girls like you anyway," I said with a shrug.
"Really? They do?" Alyse asked happily.
"Yeah!" now I'm regretting what I said. What if she knows that the 'guys' I referred to was generally me?
"That's good! I've got a chance! YAY!" she squealed in delight.
"Yay..." I cheered unenthusiastically. My life just can't get any worse.
The minute I reached home, I rushed to my room and checked my mobile phone. Oh... my heart dropped in disappointment. No text from Alyse yet. Maybe she haven't reach home yet. I mean, come to think of it, she was walking home today. So yea, I should wait for another hour. I mean, she's a girl. She probably need to shower and stuff...
One hour later...
Okay, this might sound stupid but I think I really like Alyse. She's different... like some kind of... ummm... I don't know why I like her. I don't know how I like her either. Like say, in a girl friend way or a good friend way. But then, is that a big difference? She's just different from the other girls.
It's one hour after school and she still haven't text me yet. But then, she never said she was gonna text me anyway right? Sigh... I'm overreacting. I should probably forget it. I mean, it's not like it's holiday yet. Yet, I have a feeling that she would text me today... hmm... sixth sense or something.
Another one hour later...
Shyte... I kinda have to admit that I'm staring and waiting (AND drooling) loyally like some kind of innocent puppy by my mobile phone. It's really nerve wrecking, really. I think I'm just gonna go get something to eat first...
I walked down stairs to the kitchen and poked my head into the refrigerator. Cabbage. Coke. Lollipops. Brocolli, urgh! I recoiled in disgust. Cheese. Ice cream. Leftover pizzas. Apples. A half eaten watermelon wrapped in plastic. Ahh! That's what I was looking for - Kitkat! Awh... she offered me her Kitkat. Now I'm addicted to Kitkat. Wait, I always have loved Kitkat. Anyway, now I love them even more.
I took the whole packet out and sat at the kitchen table. I unwrapped the foil slowly and took a deep breath in. Ahh... Kitkat's dark chocolate. I love it! The aroma was soooo... erm... what was that word??? AH! Therapeutic. I took a bit and chew it thoughtfully... hmm... is it me or the Kitkat tastes different today? The Kitkat tastes different today.
After finishing the whole packet of chocolate, I poured myself some warm water and drank it. I walked up slowly to my room, hoping that there is a text from Alyse waiting for me. But NO. There wasn't any. Sigh... this sucks... I started in on my homework. I just need to be patient. She never said she was gonna text me. Yeap, I'm getting pass that... At about 9 something in the late evening, my mobile phone rang and I practically dived at it. On the screen was the name of the person I've been waiting to hear from the whole afternoon. See? Patience is virtue. It's Alyse! I waited a few seconds before picking up.
"Hi Aaron!" her voice floated down the phone. I think I must be crazy to think that the way she says my name... is different. She makes it sound so special...
"Hey," I said, trying to sound casual.
"Are you busy?" I can hear her frown down the phone.
"Busy? Uhh..." I didn't wanna let her know that I was waiting for her call, so I shuffled some papers to make some noise, "I was quite busy... but... what's up?"
"The top bunk," she replied nonchalantly.
"Hahahahahahahaha! Right!" I laughed.
"So erm... I called you to... talk," she said lamely.
"Obviously! You didn't call to hear me breathe, did you?" I tried to joke. But it was lame and I slapped my forehead.
She laughed her laugh. "So what do you wanna talk about?" I asked.
"Hmm... do you know that... Gabriel broke up with his girlfriend?" she asked carefully.
"Owh... he did... he did?" I asked, I felt disappointed. He's single and available. That's not a good thing is it? No it's not a good thing at all.
"Yeah!!!" she said cheerfully.
"Good for you then. He's single again," I said, not trying to hide my disappointment.
"Yea! I was soooooooo happy when I heard that! I was practically floating on the air while I walked home! It's like sooooooo... uh... CRAZEEEE!!!!" she squealed.
I winced. It hurts my heart, like a needle had just punctured my heart. That feeling sucks. But she doesn't know that I like her and I didn't wanna risk our friendship by telling her that I like her. It's too early to do that.
"I see... " I added just to show that I was listening to her.
"Are you... okay?" Alyse asked with uncertaincy.
"Me? Fine? Uhhh... yeah... I was just a bit distracted..." I said while shuffling the papers louder. I paced my room and accidentally kicked my bed.
"OUUUUUWWWWHHHH!!!" I shouted in pain. I bent down to rub my toe. Damn it!!! How can such little thing hurt so much? I was really frustrated. But what can I do?
"Is everything alright over there?" Alyse asked worriedly.
"Ouwwwhh... erm... everything is fine over here. I just kicked my bed by accident. No big deal... " I tried assuring her.
"You sound busy..." Alyse said. Yeah! I'm busy nursing my wounded heart... and toe, that's what. After she told me that news, I wasn't in a mood to chat with her anymore.
"Yeah, in fact, I just remembered there are some... things that had to be done and have been postponed too long..." I lied. I'm such a bad liar... for add-on, I'm such a jerky, bad and idiotic liar.
"Owh..." she said disappointedly. "You go on with your work then... we'll chat next time then! Bye!" and she hung up.
"Bye..." I said to the receiver. I sighed. Why did Gabriel exist? Why did he broke up with his girlfriend anyway??? I punched my pillow repeatedly. I punched them till I was too tired to move my arms and I fell, dead tired onto my bed. I breathed hard. I closed my eyes, took my pillow and pressed it on my face and screamed into the pillow. My muffled screams make me think more about it. This is me. My heart. Screaming, but muffled by Alyse's love for Gabriel. Not wait, Alyse may tell me a lot about Gabriel, but it's not love. I'm very sure. It's just... an interest. A crush. I'm sure. I closed my eyes and calmed my breath.
I think I slept off because the next thing I open my eyes, sunlight was pouring into my windows. I closed my eyes again. Wait a minute! Sunlight??? Oh damn it! I'm late again!!!!!!
I jumped off my bed and ran to my bathroom, washed my face and got ready for school. How come no one bothered to wake me up??? I ran down the stairs into the dining room. My parents were sitting at the table with my siblings.
"Why did no one wake me up???" I said angrily.
"Oh... we thougth you were sick... or unhappy. Areli heard you screaming in your room yesterday. Was something wrong?" my mother asked worriedly.
"Nothing, I'm fine. But I'm late, " I said. I took a piece of toast and ran into the car. I told the driver, also my most trusted friend, Malvolio, to drive fast because I was really late. I looked out the window and I saw Alyse, running towards school. I laughed. She must be late too. I told Malvolio to stop and shouted to Alyse and told her to come with me to school. She came in.
"Thanks!" she thanked me.
"Welcome..." I said.
"How's your foot?" she asked, concerned. My heart fluttered.
"Foot? Oh, that? It was nothing..." I said, I can feel blush rising up my neck. Malvolio stiffled a laugh and coughed to cover it. I glared at him dangerously through the mirror.
"Anyway... *sneeze*" Oh GOSH! That was embarrassing!
"'Scuse me..." I said, wiping my nose.
"Ewww... that was disgusting..." Alyse commented in disgust.
"Sorry," I wiped my hand on my pants.
"Now, that was even more disgusting," Alyse said.
Oh shyte. What was I thinking???
"Owh. Erm. Habit," I said. Habit??? Alyse just said it was disgusting and I said it was habit? I mentally slapped my forehead.
Alyse raised her right brow, like she always does when she's going to say, 'Riiiight...'
"Riiiight..." Alyse said. See? I told you!
"I mean, erm... I'm trying to kick this bad habit. It's really bad. I know that..." I said. I wish I could just shut up.
"Riiiight..." Alyse added and nodded to herself. She looked at me for a moment but I avoided her look. Then she turned to look out the window.
Suddenly she turned and said excitedly," Hey!!! You know what?"
"No," I frowned.
"Of course you don't! Not until I tell you!" she said.
"Right. What?" I said, uninterested.
"I was chatting with Gabriel online yesterday and he knows me! But he was like... 'owh! Are you the girl who is always late?'. That was totally embarrassing..." she said.
"You chatted with him? Since when do you guys chat online?" I asked, suddenly curious to know more.
"Since last night. I gave him a bad impression... sigh..."
"I'm sure it's not that bad. Once he gets to know you, he might actually like you afterall. Guys prefer girls like you anyway," I said with a shrug.
"Really? They do?" Alyse asked happily.
"Yeah!" now I'm regretting what I said. What if she knows that the 'guys' I referred to was generally me?
"That's good! I've got a chance! YAY!" she squealed in delight.
"Yay..." I cheered unenthusiastically. My life just can't get any worse.
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